i feel it too

Sitting behind me and touching my hair
you have the same dreams and hopes i do
but it makes no difference at all.

we talk of being hopeless and keep going around.
i want to keep your thoughts and heart.
but how would that sound?

when you say it like this, i know you mean it like that.
your driving down a dirt road out of control
I'm walking down it, in the rain because Ive just torn my soul.
you come to a stop and give me a ride
i throw out my heart and put my feelings aside.
i know you as well as my self; which is little at all
and i want to be near you come when you call.

Sitting beside you holding your hand; drifting my day away never to land
You sing to me quietly in your sweet voice. you ask me if i love you like its a choice.
Then i wake up and look around were still in class.
your still behind me not knowing what to do.
thinking your alone
your not i feel it too.

"I'm Fine"

Isn't that great isn't it nice
wonderful, fantastic, fabulous
glorious! and fine?

Isn't than mean isn't it nasty
awful, terrifying, dreadful
scary! and fine?

you say your fine. its normal
nothing dangerous about
being fine.

so what does it mean exactly when you say your
FINE.

Empty

Laying on the roof of this empty house my breath is taken away because when i close my eyes i see you and your life just flying by and it makes me smile because i love you.

Sitting in the grass in this empty yard my hope is restored because when i close my eyes i see your compassion.

As i stand in this empty life my heart is stolen because i close my eyes and relize you arn't really there or here or anywhere with me and my life is empty.

trees = money?

They say that money doesn't grow on trees, my question is does it grow on anything else? let me know if it does. mmmk?

Away

On days like this i just want to run away.
go far. run. or just fly today.
Ive got places to be and a clock I'm supposed to watch.
but I'm not gonna go cause to night i wanna get lost.
oh love could lead me
out to the sea.
take me out there.
to the road in the country
up in the city, down in bayou.
take me far away
cause i don't want to loose you
we could be far off forever
we could be together.

Onions

The kitchen knife I'm cutting with chops the onions chops my heart.
with every chop i feel a release. then cry. the onions are not the only reasons my eyes are moist but i wouldn't tell them that. i finish no more to chop. I'm washing off the peels I'm rinsing away the pain. No one knows or cares i left them behind. i want to wash the sting from my eyes the onion from my hand. but no matter what i do the onion pain sticks.
Like You.

Not Sweet

This frosting doesn't taste as sweet as it should. I can't help thinking, knowing, and wishing if you let me kiss your lips, cheek, neck, skin it would taste sweeter. maybe its wrong to think it, but i do... too bad you don't feel the same about me. if youd let me i think i could...give me a chance. Should i let you read this? Would it make a difference? For good? For worse? it doesn't matter. I won't show you. my sweet one.

Mr...

you make me laugh
Mr. funny i love you
you make me cry
Mr. emotional i love you
you make me love
Mr. lovely i love you
you make me feel loose
Mr. freedom i love you
you make me feel special
Mr. unforgettable i love you
you let me know these things
Mr. incredible i know i love you.

Amazing

To feel your hand in my hair
your lips on my cheek
let me kiss you right there
lay against you and breath
hear your thoughts
and know you so deep
so its more than i can handle
it could be amazing.

Sit still and just breath
relax in my arms
ill rock you gently to sleep
and watch you dream
this pain hurts so deep
that i want to just leave
but if you there its alright now.

Waiting

Im waiting for you to answer the phone.
I know you hear it ring. I know you are home...

Cut

When the heart hurts so bad it seems better to forget the pain.
To hurt in other ways because i understand the pain i can
see
feel
touch.
I cut or punch or pinch
or hurt me too many ways to mention.
Better than the pain i don't understand.
Cut too deep to care.
I know my pain isn't rare.

3 seats back

three seats back in the row and i still think you know
i could be your one
love, laugh have fun.
I'm too fat or wrong
this is my dysfunctional love song.

Just Me

Take me for me.
Let me show you who i am.
Take me for me.
Let me be your biggest fan.
Take me for me.
love me,touch me,hold me now.
Take me for me.
Look at me and just think wow.
Take me for me.
I don't want to change you.
Take me for me.
don't try to change me too.

Mismatched

In the movies it all works out
but not in the real world.
My mind seems to figure it out
but not my heart.
My legs go walking about
but not my tired feet.
Things seem to fit together almost
but not quite
like the sun on a rainy day.

a little again

she sits in the back as the last song plays
feeling all the pain she has
all the joy she lacks
and crys a single tear for him
she asked him to dance but he was already promised to some one else
no more beautiful than her its just she asked first
she had the courage
she deserved him more
he told the other; the one with the tiara
he didn't want to ruin their friendship
she still wants more
he doesn't
too sad to mention more she walks away to the back of the room where she can
disappear
she crys a single tear and forgets her dream nothing left hear for the broken hearted
homecoming queen

and she--- crys alittle
as she lyes--- there
and she wishes--- she was little
without a care
again.

she had sat beside him that day
and felt his hair
touched his freckles
wished as hard as she could for
nothing
too afraid to ask when she did it was too late shewants to do it all again
to ask sooner but theres no shooting star, and no time machine, to make the wish come true

and so she crys--a little
as she lyes there
and she wishes she was little
without a care
again

she drives home in a broken car
with a broken heart
tiara still on her head
wondering what could have been
alone driving with him
why not me she thinks aloud

and she crys--a little
as she lyes there
and she wishes she was little
without a care
again