Tuesday, June 5, 2007

broken star

Can a broken star still shine?
will it glimmer and gleam for all time?
and can it lead me home tonight?

Can a worried bird still sing?
Will a guitar play with broken strings?
Who will take me home tonight?

Can a silent girl still pray?
Who will know what to say
if i don't come home tonight?

I feel so broken now.
but i danced on anyhow
I won't come home tonight.

Can a broken star still shine?
will it glimmer and gleam for all time?
and can it lead me through the night?

Monday, May 7, 2007

Goodbye stranger

When you say hello stranger
it hits like a dart.
i never realized how far together
we have grown apart.

If you sit on this bench with me
and listen for a memory,
i will stand in the rain with you
and taste the loss that's true.

So far from here
we each whispered
those things that no one else
was meant to hear.

Your not the same now .
I met once someone a lot like you my dear.
you used to be that someone
different than you are now.

Now its time to say goodbye i fear.
I've left my self and you in the last tear.
Goodbye stranger of mine.
that is so far but seems so near.

Thursday, May 3, 2007

At war with myself

I cannot take more,
I'm just not that strong.
I'm just out to live.
Find where i belong.

I'm less than you think
but more than i was
i want you to find more out just because...
but its too hard to stop war.

Wish that i could cope by
feeling the wind though the trees.
have a way to live
beautiful and strong
like the breeze.

I'm less than you think.
More than i was.
I want you to find out more just because.
but its too hard to stop war.

i am just a girl in a awful despair
Digging in my heart for the right to care.
just a little girl in this awful despair
knowing i will probably never care
but its too hard to stop life.

Wednesday, May 2, 2007

The life that you wished for

You have lost that gleam in your eye.
Lost the will , now willing to di-ie.
Stop before your life hits the floor.
Come back; to the life that you wished for.


Ive seen it ; what your going through.
what you've gotta be and all that you've gotta do
So take that dream back the one that's never ending
stop living in bland and just stop pretending.

You have lost that gleam in your eye.
Lost the will , now willing to di-ie.
Stop before your life hits the floor.
Come back; to the life that you wished for.

Yesterday you heard me say
said you could do it
Its the truth. i wouldn't lie
This is life that you didn't want
so just screw it.
That dream is still alive
behind just one door
Get off your ass
and come back to
the life that you wished for

If you still want it that badly then
come back to the life that you wished for--

Monday, April 30, 2007

Bad Boy

He's my bad boy
He likes Manson and Hendrix.
He's a bad boy.
We do things that we shouldn't.
And im a bad girl,
for stealing his heart.

Cause i don't really love him.
No i can't tell him now.
That i don't really love him
I just can't let him go.

He's just so good
in such a bad way
And so good that i wont let him go.
When he touches i get tingles
When i feel him close to me and want to keep him here
but i should probably dissapear

And i see breath run though his chest
and gasping heavily
I still know he's a bad boy
but i just can't let him go.

When i feel like im falling away
i run to him he says its okay.
somtimes i cry and feel his pain
worry about his life and the troubles obtained


He's my bad boy.
He likes Manson and Hendrix.
He's a bad boy.
We do things that we shouldn't
and a bad girl,
for stealing his heart.

Wednesday, April 25, 2007

Nothing to be said

Nothing to be said
Come and go,
wherever you are
just tell me this...

If i left you
If i just skipped town
would you forget all the times we had
so far gone?

To just block me out
not staying about.
Sing to me again that hard sad song you wrote.

Times like these don't make since
it's just not fair.

If i left you
if i just skipped town.
Would you forget all the times we had
so far gone?

Monday, April 23, 2007

Graffiti Heart

Wake up Broken heart.
Oh just do your part.
Save me from my depression
and his graffiti art.

Stop the vandalism.
all colors in the prism
are nothing but black and white
written after our angry schism.

Its too hard too wash away
not knowing how; i leave. Nothing to say.
Save me, do your part
against my depression and my graffiti heart.

Tuesday, April 17, 2007

crys a little again II

She goes home to a house so full
yet it's still empty in her soul
Wonders what could've been
if her her mother didn't belive in sin

and she crys a little
as she lyes there
and she wishes she was little
without a care. again.

She stops caring about the maybes
or the loneliness or even death
she wants to cover it all up
but her feet get stuck in yesterday.

and she crys a little
as she lyes there
and she wishes she was little
without a care. again.

He was a good one
she was gone, done
not enough to hold them
stepping in
the door in the back

and she crys a little
as she lyes there
and she wishes she was little
without a care. again.

Her life is going no where fast
shes running from the future and afraid of the past
yet still standing in the rain and not ready for sun

and she crys a little
as she lyes there
and she wishes she was little
without a care. again.

Will it all be gone? Lost?
whats this sin gonna cost?
will she cure, like she wold hope?
no shes still lost and afraid to cope.

and she crys a little
as she lyes there
and she wishes she was little
without a care. again.

and she wishes she was little
without a care. again.

Wednesday, April 11, 2007

It's still you

Remember that night we came so close?
I knew then it was you i wanted the most.
I don't know why we stopped, guess we thought we were clever.
Making our "just friends" attitude last forever.

We then agreed to not do it again
sweet but too strange.
I thought that's where it ends?

I still want you...
I wanna know if you still want me too.

Yes, i still think you are hotter than hell
and if you kissed me theres no way id tell.
Cause i know it would be so good;
just like it should.


I still want you...
I wanna know if you still want me too.

So when you come aroun'
i keep looking you down.
my eyes cant help it
but i keep my lip bit.

I still want you...
Do you still want me too?

Monday, April 9, 2007

all i want

my schedules getting weary
my life is getting tight
and nothings going half way good tonight
but it doesn't matter because all i want to do
is pack up and run away with you.

I feel the blame driving through the day
your looking at me
and i don't know what to say
I don't think it matters and all i want to do
is pack my stuff and run away from you.

I'm sorry about all the mistrust
I'm felling lonely and I'm missing us.
i know now how it matters and all i want to do
pack back up and run home to you.
just run home to you.

losing

She can't find the will to leave the shit alone.
shes poping pills and smoking crap; to feel less when stoned
alot like running away from home.

He's sitting by the window.
watching the stars and street lamp glow.
lost his job, his girl, his life.
looks at his arm and cut with a knife
the hurt is less and the pain is more then.

They're feeling more and more alone
they find fear in the first tear
to get rid of the awful curse moving on,
forward and fight for life
not in reverse. losing the past.
will that be enough?

Thursday, April 5, 2007

Stone heart

i didn't cry, wouldn't cry
wouldn't give in either
something holds me back; i can't remember the last time i cried.

no tears,no searching for my lack.
no fears, no turning back.

my heart is stone, i can feel it getting harder, soon to be unbreakable.
unattachable, unpenetratable and untouchable.

i almost want to feel. to let the emotions run through me.
too bad i wont. my hands are alone.
my face is solem and tone.
my eyes tightly shut; sewn.
and as you know my heart is stone.

Monday, March 26, 2007

i feel it too

Sitting behind me and touching my hair
you have the same dreams and hopes i do
but it makes no difference at all.

we talk of being hopeless and keep going around.
i want to keep your thoughts and heart.
but how would that sound?

when you say it like this, i know you mean it like that.
your driving down a dirt road out of control
I'm walking down it, in the rain because Ive just torn my soul.
you come to a stop and give me a ride
i throw out my heart and put my feelings aside.
i know you as well as my self; which is little at all
and i want to be near you come when you call.

Sitting beside you holding your hand; drifting my day away never to land
You sing to me quietly in your sweet voice. you ask me if i love you like its a choice.
Then i wake up and look around were still in class.
your still behind me not knowing what to do.
thinking your alone
your not i feel it too.

Friday, March 16, 2007

"I'm Fine"

Isn't that great isn't it nice
wonderful, fantastic, fabulous
glorious! and fine?

Isn't than mean isn't it nasty
awful, terrifying, dreadful
scary! and fine?

you say your fine. its normal
nothing dangerous about
being fine.

so what does it mean exactly when you say your
FINE.

Tuesday, March 13, 2007

Empty

Laying on the roof of this empty house my breath is taken away because when i close my eyes i see you and your life just flying by and it makes me smile because i love you.

Sitting in the grass in this empty yard my hope is restored because when i close my eyes i see your compassion.

As i stand in this empty life my heart is stolen because i close my eyes and relize you arn't really there or here or anywhere with me and my life is empty.

Monday, March 12, 2007

trees = money?

They say that money doesn't grow on trees, my question is does it grow on anything else? let me know if it does. mmmk?

Wednesday, March 7, 2007

Away

On days like this i just want to run away.
go far. run. or just fly today.
Ive got places to be and a clock I'm supposed to watch.
but I'm not gonna go cause to night i wanna get lost.
oh love could lead me
out to the sea.
take me out there.
to the road in the country
up in the city, down in bayou.
take me far away
cause i don't want to loose you
we could be far off forever
we could be together.

Onions

The kitchen knife I'm cutting with chops the onions chops my heart.
with every chop i feel a release. then cry. the onions are not the only reasons my eyes are moist but i wouldn't tell them that. i finish no more to chop. I'm washing off the peels I'm rinsing away the pain. No one knows or cares i left them behind. i want to wash the sting from my eyes the onion from my hand. but no matter what i do the onion pain sticks.
Like You.

Not Sweet

This frosting doesn't taste as sweet as it should. I can't help thinking, knowing, and wishing if you let me kiss your lips, cheek, neck, skin it would taste sweeter. maybe its wrong to think it, but i do... too bad you don't feel the same about me. if youd let me i think i could...give me a chance. Should i let you read this? Would it make a difference? For good? For worse? it doesn't matter. I won't show you. my sweet one.

Mr...

you make me laugh
Mr. funny i love you
you make me cry
Mr. emotional i love you
you make me love
Mr. lovely i love you
you make me feel loose
Mr. freedom i love you
you make me feel special
Mr. unforgettable i love you
you let me know these things
Mr. incredible i know i love you.

Amazing

To feel your hand in my hair
your lips on my cheek
let me kiss you right there
lay against you and breath
hear your thoughts
and know you so deep
so its more than i can handle
it could be amazing.

Sit still and just breath
relax in my arms
ill rock you gently to sleep
and watch you dream
this pain hurts so deep
that i want to just leave
but if you there its alright now.

Tuesday, March 6, 2007

Waiting

Im waiting for you to answer the phone.
I know you hear it ring. I know you are home...

Cut

When the heart hurts so bad it seems better to forget the pain.
To hurt in other ways because i understand the pain i can
see
feel
touch.
I cut or punch or pinch
or hurt me too many ways to mention.
Better than the pain i don't understand.
Cut too deep to care.
I know my pain isn't rare.

3 seats back

three seats back in the row and i still think you know
i could be your one
love, laugh have fun.
I'm too fat or wrong
this is my dysfunctional love song.

Just Me

Take me for me.
Let me show you who i am.
Take me for me.
Let me be your biggest fan.
Take me for me.
love me,touch me,hold me now.
Take me for me.
Look at me and just think wow.
Take me for me.
I don't want to change you.
Take me for me.
don't try to change me too.

Mismatched

In the movies it all works out
but not in the real world.
My mind seems to figure it out
but not my heart.
My legs go walking about
but not my tired feet.
Things seem to fit together almost
but not quite
like the sun on a rainy day.

Monday, March 5, 2007

a little again

she sits in the back as the last song plays
feeling all the pain she has
all the joy she lacks
and crys a single tear for him
she asked him to dance but he was already promised to some one else
no more beautiful than her its just she asked first
she had the courage
she deserved him more
he told the other; the one with the tiara
he didn't want to ruin their friendship
she still wants more
he doesn't
too sad to mention more she walks away to the back of the room where she can
disappear
she crys a single tear and forgets her dream nothing left hear for the broken hearted
homecoming queen

and she--- crys alittle
as she lyes--- there
and she wishes--- she was little
without a care
again.

she had sat beside him that day
and felt his hair
touched his freckles
wished as hard as she could for
nothing
too afraid to ask when she did it was too late shewants to do it all again
to ask sooner but theres no shooting star, and no time machine, to make the wish come true

and so she crys--a little
as she lyes there
and she wishes she was little
without a care
again

she drives home in a broken car
with a broken heart
tiara still on her head
wondering what could have been
alone driving with him
why not me she thinks aloud

and she crys--a little
as she lyes there
and she wishes she was little
without a care
again